"the love you take, is equal to the love you make"

"And in the end, the love you take, is equal to the love you make." 

Love will take over your mind

"Love is blind. It will take over your mind. What you think is love, is truly not. You need to elevate your mind."  Merry Christmas Alejandro Manzano!

"it can't really be felt, truly, by one."

"I like to believe that love is a reciprocal thing, that it can't really be felt, truly, by one." – Sean Penn

And funny enough we are ALL one!

"I want all of you, forever, you and me"

"So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day…" 

– Ryan Gosling, The Notebook

Alejandro Manzano Deep Inside

Never gonna leave your side - Daniel bedingfield

“Lay my head against your heart and 

I know I AM HOME”

“I miss you EVERY DAY”

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You're deep inside me!

Happy Birthday Alejandro Manzano

Everyone is eating the cheesecake I made for your birthday but no one knows its for you *shy smile* They love it. I wish you could taste.

Happy Birthday Alejandro Manzano.

"we were supposed to be together"

"It was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were supposed to be together… and I knew it." – Tom Hanks, Sleepless In Seattle

Alejandro Manzano Lonely

Would Alejandro Manzano ever be Lonely? 

He has tons of friends and fans so I doubt it but IF he ever does……

 

Who Are You MEANT For?

Dear Alejandro Mazano,

I'm sure not a day goes by without wondering who you belong to.

There will likely be times in your life when your soul evolves more quickly than your circumstances. Your subconscious mind may be ready to move forward long before you recognize that you are destined to embrace a new way of life. Your soul intuitively understands that changing habitats can be a vital part of the growth process and that there may be one part of you that is eager to move to another home, another state, or another plane of existence. But the ties that bind you to your current mode of being can make moving into this next stage of your life more challenging than it has to be. If you find it difficult to move on, consider that just as people in your life may come and go, your role in others’ lives may also be temporary. And many of the conditions that at first seemed favorable served you for a short time. When you are ready to match your situation to your soul, you will find that you feel a new sense of harmony and increasingly connected to the ebb and flow of the universe.

Moving on can be defined in numerous ways. Your forward momentum may take you from your current locale to a place you instinctively know will be more nurturing, comfortable, and spiritually enriching. Once you arrive, your misgivings will vanish, and you will know that you have found a sanctuary. Similarly, subtle changes in your values, goals, or emotional needs can motivate you to distance yourself from one group of people in order to reassociate yourself with individuals that are better able to support you. For example, this could mean moving away from your birth family in order to find your energetic or spiritual family. The route you need to travel may not always be clear; you may feel inspired to change yet be unsure as to why or how. Clarity may come in the form of a question if you are willing to seriously ask yourself where your soul is trying to take you.

In a way, moving from one point to another when you feel strongly driven to do so is a way of bringing your spiritual and earthly energies together. It is a two-step process that involves not only letting go but also reconnecting. You will know you have found your destination, physical or otherwise, when you feel in your heart that you have been reborn into a life that is just the right shape, size, and composition. 

I hope you find that 'home' you belong to.

How Does Alejandro Manzano Kiss

What type of a kisser is Alejandro Manzano?

Alejandro Manzano Soulmate

A Soulmate IS a permanent guide for our spirits, they are partners with us as we travel through our many lives and lessons. They are not meant to complete us, instead they help us to see that we are whole with or without them. Together Soulmates encourage and challenge each other, constantly aiding our internal spirits to grow.
The souls are connected, they have woven a web of experiences that join them, and even when we are not with our Soulmate, we can feel them within, close to our hearts.

Contrary to popular belief…
Not every life will we find a Soulmate in the form of lover, physical partner or spouse. They are not always meant to be a romantic connection for us.

Why…?
When we plan our lives, we decide what role will be best for our spirit’s growth, what support we will need. It is that role that Soulmates will agree to perform. Your Soulmate could be a friend, your brother, wife or even your spiritual guide. But they are always there with you.

The physical meeting…
When 2 Soulmates meet in the physical, it is similar to a home coming… you feel that recognition and love deep within your spirit… and know that this is a person you’ve always had beside you, even if not in physical form.
Sharing the same dreams… feeling each others emotions from a distance… sensing when the other is in need… these are all common among Soulmates. It is more than just sharing the same likes and dislikes, it is an instant connection that feels like it has always existed.
Whether our Soulmates are incarnated on earth or have remained in spirit form this life, their essence is still with us, and often we are able to reach out and sense them. The following are a few tips on reaching out to your Soulmate.

Soulmate in Spiritual Form…
If you currently speak with your guides or higher self, remember that to speak with your Soulmate is just as simple.
As you would call on your guides, call on your Soulmate’s spirit to be present with you.
If they are in spirit form, and not incarnated on earth, then the spirit’s presence will tend to be very strong around you. You may even recognize them as the energy of one of your guides.
Often when a person, comes in contact with a Soulmate in spiritual form, the energy is so intense, and the love is so strong, it is beyond anything the person has ever experienced. It is a love so deep, and unconditional, it surpasses any love they have felt on earth.

Soulmate Incarnated…
For those whose Soulmates are incarnated on earth, it may be slightly harder for you to pick up on their spirit. But it is still very possible.
Remember, every human has a spirit within, and that spirit is not limited to the boundaries we see in our human form. Our spirits can communicate with each other, outside of using our eyes, ears, mouths and bodies… Energy carries many messages.
Once again, as you would call on your guides, ask them to help you with reaching your Soulmate (Soulmate´s spirit). Since your hearts are closely knit together, you may be able to sense their spirit.
If they are open to energy, and in touch with their intuition then their spirit will be more free to communicate. However, if they are very shadowed or walled within the human form, the spirit may be veiled; in a deeper sleep. This may make it harder to reach out to them.
You may feel the energy around you change, and sense there is another spirit there reaching out to you. Often our physical body responds with feelings of waves, goosebumps, or shivers.
Others may see flashes of places, things, or a person. This is often due to your spirit tapping into the Soulmate´s physical being, but not the Soulmate´s spirit. You are seeing parts of the life they live, but not communicating with the being inside. This may be due to the heavy veil around the spirit, and the dominance of the human mind.
Once you feel that presence… Speak with them. Spirits can communicate through energy, which means your thoughts and feelings can be shared and theirs can be received. Space does not exist when working with the soul.

As you go forward remember…the love of all beings… Finding your Soulmate should never be a mission in life! Everyone who crosses your path, has the potential to touch your heart and affect your soul. Respect that, and love each individual for the being within.

When and if it is time for you to meet your Soulmate in this life, it will happen. Trust in that path you and your Soulmate have created, don’t try to rush it for you can’t. No matter what your mind desires, it is your soul that will call in your Soulmate when it is perfect timing for you both.

Alejandro Manzano My Kindred Spirit

SOULMATES are THE SPECIAL PEOPLE in our lives… People who we have shared previous lives with, who we have loved, and helped and strove towards understanding and bonding with. Soul mates are People who when we meet, we feel a connection, a rapport and a sense of familiarity. We feel comfortable with these people and the relationship we share is usually on a POSITIVE LEVEL. While you may experience some friction and a few problems the negativity is easily resolved and, once understood, serves to help both of you to learn identical lessons.  In my opinion I see 4 distinctly different types of soul mates. Each has a unique set of characteristics that makes them unmistakable from those others who come into my life. LET’S begin with the most challenging first and end with the general conception of soul mate…
TEACHER SOULMATES, these folks are usually the most difficult soul mate relationship we have. I believe on the other side these souls agreed to help us learn an uncomfortable lesson, we agreed to work with and experience this lesson for our soul’s growth. These folks volunteered to be the villain or that ROUGH teacher for us. We sometimes have problems understand the connection, or the love, when they challenge us so constantly and we have difficulty achieving rapport with these people. They force us into growth situations and make us often very uncomfortable with where we are so we are forced to change, they rarely stay in our lives forever but are forever remembered as…””??? IF that person had not done ????….. I would not be or be doing … THIS now..……””
COMPANION SOULMATES are people who are going to help us accomplish a goal and are here to assist us with a SPECIAL purpose. Their help is sometimes a chance encounter, a comment made, a smile, a kind word, a connection when you think you cannot go forward another step. They help you in various ways when you need it most. They offer a mutual gift of learning, sharing and help even in a brief encounter.
We meet companion soul mates every day in a variety of situations and circumstances. You recognize them as the stranger or acquaintance who offers you good advice about a problem or just listens when you need to sound off. They are there when your car breaks down, when we need a teacher to learn, Sometimes just when we need a quarter for the telephone, or when we need a smile to brighten our day, or someone to make eye contact so that we know we are being seen.
These soul mates are the ENCOURAGERS who help us to TRY something new or different. Sometimes they come as a boss who appreciates you and these are the people in your life who you feel good about and who assist you in feeling better about yourself.
We have spent a brief time with these folks and there is not usually a SERIOUS bond between you and the present association you have with them now…. I think that in previous lifetimes perhaps we helped these souls and now they are returning the favor. These soul mates rarely are in your life forever but were there when you needed their connection to assist you. I believe that these souls can, if we work towards a more lasting relationship this lifetime become in another lifetime TWIN SOUL MATES:
TWIN SOULMATES are people who have shared a special bond of friendship and love with in many lifetimes. You feel that complete, natural and open energy with them. Meeting a twin soul mate is like running into a good friend you have not seen in years. There is a connection, and comfortable feeling and you almost seem to pick up the relationship right where it left off in a previous lifetime. These folks have the connection with you and a feeling of continuing something comes when you meet.
We recognize a twin soul mate as someone with all the characteristics of a COMPANION soul mate but with a much stronger and more lasting bond between you. Twin soul mates usually are close family members, special friends, and people who understand you completely and do not judge you the same way others do.
There is very often a spiritual and almost psychic connection with this soul mate. Very often we do not even need words to communicate with them because your souls are in tune on telepathic levels and you almost intuitively know their feelings. We look at these people and smile and feel good.
Your life experiences often parallel the life experiences of your twin soul mate. Together you help each other in many different ways to grow and learn and your friendship becomes even stronger this lifetime.
Your present relationship usually lasts from several years to an ent8ire lifetime. IF you part, you do it in a positive way and value the time, energy and the friendship you shared with them. You have many of these people around you and all it requires is to trust, be open to being a friend and this person becomes so much more.
WE OFTEN MARRY THIS soul mate and many of us wonder what is missing because we are sometimes looking for a TWIN FLAME SOULMATE …and do not appreciate the gift we are given with this tremendous connection.
TWIN FLAME SOULMATES are not there each and every lifetime for us. SOME lifetimes we must learn to care for self, be self sufficient and not bond into this strong and passionate WE are ONE energy losing our sense of who we are as an individual. This is the one and only CONNECTED part of yourself soul, it is almost as if you are ½ and this person is the other ½..
BUT, as I Said, this is NOT FOR EVERY lifetime and the downside to this soul mate is usually that one person disappears into the other person as they join lives. This is the one path, one way, one unit energy. Also, Living without this person is very hard if not impossible when one or the other passes over to the other side first.
There is a deep and meaningful spiritual bond that creates a special rapport with this person. A rather electric current of energy flows between you and you know on some level that you have known this person forever and that YOU BELONG with them and you cannot be apart. Your soul recognizes and remembers your twin flame soul mate. There is only THIS one soul which is your perfect counterpart and together there is created a special magic between the two of you. You will not totally experience this with anyone else and this is NOT to be experienced in every lifetime. AND that is as it is intended to be for our soul’s growth.
So the problem with our soul recognizing that there is this type of relationship is that we do not always meet our TWIN FLAME each lifetime. Sometimes we search and search and pass up wonderful relationships that have much growth, learning and joy within that union looking for this merging of spirit.
Please realize that each lifetime carries energy, this energy is your life path and sometimes your path is to assist others, be a healer, teacher, guide, pioneer, leader, warrior, spiritual advisor for others, whatever, and this path must during many lifetimes be done without the twin flame soul mate being there to distract you from your path..
This does not mean we must be without love; on the contrary realize that in every relationship there is a learning, an lesson and the ability to turn this into a new and closer connection between your two souls.
Many of my clients and friends are companion soul mates and a few are twin soul mates. The trick of this is to make each relationship that we are in the best it can be. We must honor, nurture and allow our relationships with others to grown and become the most empowering for both souls that is possible in order to reconnect in other incarnations with these wonderful souls and have even more of them come to us when we need assistance in this lifetime and the next..
Remember that with pain sometimes comes growth, but LOVE should NOT BE PAINFUL MOST OF THE TIME. IF it hurts too much that is a very good indication that this is NOT a soul mate who is here to stay a lifetime with you.
WE have angels and guides and much help here in this incarnation. Remember that you can be a SOULMATE for many people in your life and in doing this; you will attract those others from your past lives to you.

WORK at being a good friend, teacher, neighbor and Human being and you will find the thousands of connections out there waiting for you. AND for those of you, who believe you have found your TWIN FLAME, remember that this is NOT A PAINFUL relationship, but a joyous union as 2 souls join into one to encourage growth and good for the world and each other………. AND all soul mates Are here to help us grow …

Brain Sex With Alejandro Manzano

Ok so I did not have Brain Sex With Alejandro Manzano in real time but the meaning behind my dreams can be deciphered partly with…. (PS I haven't chronicled my dreams because 1. I am very shy. 2. I am concerned about rebuttal towards spiritual and mental connections with someone 3. Google might slap sexually related content) But I MIGHT soon ;-)

"Man and woman naturally complement each other…" Men and women don't complete each other they complement each other.

That is why I put up a pic of the YINGYANG -

The concept of yin and yang:

The Taijitu and concept of the Zhou period reach into family and gender relations. Yin is female and yang is male. They fit together as two parts of a whole. The Taijitu is one of the oldest and best-known life symbols in the world, but few understand its full meaning. It represents one of the most fundamental and profound theories of ancient Taoist philosophy. At its heart are the two poles of existence, which are opposite but complementary. The light, white Yang moving up blends into the dark, black Yin moving down. Yin and Yang are dependent opposing forces that flow in a natural cycle, always seeking balance. Though they are opposing, they are not in opposition to one another. As part of the Tao, they are merely two aspects of a single reality. Each contains the seed of the other, which is why we see a black spot of Yin in the white Yang and vice versa. They do not merely replace each other but actually become each other through the constant flow of the universe.

Our brains are hardwired to find a complementing physiological DNA structure, another human who is compatible to each of our unique and individual traits including personality, beliefs, values etc, as well as the deeper constructs which make up our souls, our life essence. So even though I strongly dislike the concept of “You complete me”, because that would insinuate that an individual is not complete on their own, perhaps in some way it is true. I believe that much of our journey in life is to become complete and whole within ourselves before joining with another whole and complete half. 

The Chinese also support these ideology with the concept of yin and yang:

The Taijitu and concept of the Zhou period reach into family and gender relations. Yin is female and yang is male. They fit together as two parts of a whole. The Taijitu is one of the oldest and best-known life symbols in the world, but few understand its full meaning. It represents one of the most fundamental and profound theories of ancient Taoist philosophy. At its heart are the two poles of existence, which are opposite but complementary. The light, white Yang moving up blends into the dark, black Yin moving down. Yin and Yang are dependent opposing forces that flow in a natural cycle, always seeking balance. Though they are opposing, they are not in opposition to one another. As part of the Tao, they are merely two aspects of a single reality. Each contains the seed of the other, which is why we see a black spot of Yin in the white Yang and vice versa. They do not merely replace each other but actually become each other through the constant flow of the universe.

- See more at: http://www.viendamaria.com/2011/03/brain-sex-why-men-and-women-need-each-other/#sthash.ZXt5ZEmS.dpufThe Chinese also support these ideology with the concept of yin and yang:  The Taijitu and concept of the Zhou period reach into family and gender relations. Yin is female and yang is male. They fit together as two parts of a whole. The Taijitu is one of the oldest and best-known life symbols in the world, but few understand its full meaning. It represents one of the most fundamental and profound theories of ancient Taoist philosophy. At its heart are the two poles of existence, which are opposite but complementary. The light, white Yang moving up blends into the dark, black Yin moving down. Yin and Yang are dependent opposing forces that flow in a natural cycle, always seeking balance. Though they are opposing, they are not in opposition to one another. As part of the Tao, they are merely two aspects of a single reality. Each contains the seed of the other, which is why we see a black spot of Yin in the white Yang and vice versa. They do not merely replace each other but actually become each other through the constant flow of the universe. - See more at: http://www.viendamaria.com/2011/03/brain-sex-why-men-and-women-need-each-other/#sthash.ZXt5ZEmS.dpuf

MASCULINE: Left brain: I am the left brain. I am a scientist. A mathematician. I love the familiar. I categorise. I am accurate. Linear. Analytical. Strategic. I am practical. Always in control. A master of words and language. Realistic. I calculate equations and play with numbers. I am order. I am logic. I know exactly who I am.

FEMININE: Right brand: I am the right brain. I am creativity. A free spirit. I am passion. Yearning. Sensuality. I am the sound of roaring laughter. I am taste. The feeling of sand beneath bare feat. I am movement. Vivid colors. I am the urge to paint on an empty canvas. I am boundless imagination. Art. Poetry. I sense. I feel. I am everything I wanted to be.

- See more at: http://www.viendamaria.com/2011/03/brain-sex-why-men-and-women-need-each-other/#sthash.ZXt5ZEmS.dpuf

MASCULINE: Left brain: I am the left brain. I am a scientist. A mathematician. I love the familiar. I categorise. I am accurate. Linear. Analytical. Strategic. I am practical. Always in control. A master of words and language. Realistic. I calculate equations and play with numbers. I am order. I am logic. I know exactly who I am.

FEMININE: Right brand: I am the right brain. I am creativity. A free spirit. I am passion. Yearning. Sensuality. I am the sound of roaring laughter. I am taste. The feeling of sand beneath bare feat. I am movement. Vivid colors. I am the urge to paint on an empty canvas. I am boundless imagination. Art. Poetry. I sense. I feel. I am everything I wanted to be.

- See more at: http://www.viendamaria.com/2011/03/brain-sex-why-men-and-women-need-each-other/#sthash.ZXt5ZEmS.dpuf

Alejandro Manzano Eyes

Whoever said beauty is in the eyes of the beholder was spot on. Nothing turns me and resonates with me as much as a guys deep gaze. Beautiful soulful eyes just melt me Everytime!

In dedication to Alejandro Manzano and his soulful Eyes, I post Peter Gabriel's In Your Eyes…..

Sending positive waves of blessings and love to Alejandro Manzano today.

Alejandro Manzano Voice

YOU COULD SING ANYTHING AND YOU COULD MAKE IT SOUND MAGICAL

I love Alejandro Manzano Voice!

Alejandro Manzano What You Mean Part 2

Alejandro Manzano

SoulUrge Number: 4

People with this name have a deep inner desire for order and physical creativity, and want to be involved in conventional, safe activities.

Expression Number: 8

People with this name are competent, practical, and often obtain great power and wealth. They tend to be successful in business and commercial affairs, and are able to achieve great material dreams. Because they often focus so strongly on business and achievement, they may neglect their private lives and relationships.

Alejandro Manzano What You Mean

In Greek the meaning of the name Alejandro is: Defender; protector of mankind.

In Spanish the meaning of the name Alejandro is: Defends mankind.

It is no coincidence that Alejandro Manzano is named Alejandro. I feel he has a bigger purpose than what he doing now and I think he feels the inner pull too. That there is more he was and is meant to do!

Alejandro Manzano's Eyes

Alejandro Manzano's Eyes aren’t so much soulful as yearning, petulant, restless.

He smiles and butterflies flutter and stars shoot across the night sky.

If only one could look past those eyes.

I had another dream about you last night. Does blogger.com allow adult rated content? *blush*

How Difficult Is It Getting For You Alejandro?

Watching brothers, their wives and their kids...that closeness between them, do you want that too? Getting asked the same inane question “so when will you settle down”. Isn't it getting difficult? Theres silence between you and me but I can FEEL it. it’s a vibrational communication. This isn’t a one sided conversation as I thought it was because though there is silence between us  my brains decoding your calling out. IM A RECIEVER. Receiving your transmissions. And like osmosis I feel different emotions. None that stem from the situations I am in. It is like I am absorbing what you feel where you are what you’re doing rather than my present moments.

Those who truly love you will stand by you, no matter what. And those who are no longer part of your life have already played their role in helping you find out who you truly are. Sometimes it takes polarity to be able to differentiate who WE are, who THEY are and where WE'RE going. They help providing that contrast which allows you to see differences - now you know who you are, and what you want and what your non-negotiables are.    

Dedication To Alejandro Manzano

This is how I'm feeling today. This is how I feel about you.

Reason, Season, Or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

 

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

 

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

 

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

 

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Mistakes

If there is one thing I could remind you
Dear Alejandro Manzano
Is that you aren't the only one who makes mistakes.
Even when you make mistakes,
Which you will,
Learn to forgive yourself
and learn from your mistakes.



What's the point of carrying those mistakes around?
Don't regret them,
Think of it as an experience,



I know you might be tempted,
Tempted to look back,
Again and again,
At those 'mistakes'.
These are just lessons of wisdom.
Only the future is in your control.
If you really have to look back,
Think about the reason
WHY you made those mistakes.
Oh my dear Alejandro Manzano
Don't run from your mistakes,
And forgive yourself first.

I Smile A Lot

I noticed Alejandro doesn't smile a lot but that's who he is. He comes across as someone genuine and sincere. I smile quite a bit. I can't help but smile.

I have one of those 'can't do a poker face' faces. What I feel is what you see. I have not mastered the art of disguising emotions on my face. That can be a tad annoying.

I also shmize a lot (that's when you smile with your eyes). I tried to just smile without my eyes shining but it seems that it is physiologically impossible for me haha :)

I like that Alejandro saves those precious smiles. It's kinda cute!

Sydney Is Home

There is a spirit to this place like no where else. There is an honest beauty. Simple. Easy. My newly adopted country is one of the most “no need to be politically correct” countries in the world. There is also a rhythm to Sydney. I love that you can choose to live your life in nature here. This country has been home for a few years. This is my second home.

Thinking Outside The Box

So many people are locked inside a box without questioning anything about what they’ve been taught.  Afraid of what others might think if they venture outside the box, remaining complacent and conformalist to what society dictates. It seems harder to rely on our own discernment & judgment.

People could live their entire lives pretending to be what society expects them to be and not even know it!

I Am Complete

I Am Complete
Without you.

I have only understood recently what it is like to feel complete and what it is to love oneself without anyone else making me feel 'whole'. I think our 20s are to feel that yearning and our 30s is to understand that we are whole just by ourselves.

I don't undervalue the companion who uplifts you just with their presence in your life. That is beautiful. But anything can happen. Besides the 'break up' that may happen (controllable), there is death in its finality (uncontrollable). If we place so much significance on feeling complete WITH someone what happens if that person is no longer around. This could be anyone or anything, from a romantic partner to a pet.

Take the love of our parents.
Full disclaimer: I love my parents and my brother so much, to bits.
At some point our independence sets in. That feeling you get that this life is MINE to live, to do what I think I should, my identity is now separate from that familial bond.
I also now understand what it is like to let go as a parent has to let go. When we're young we are so eager to make our mistakes that our parents have to let go but now I let go and allow MY PARENTS to make their mistakes.

I don't know how many young adults in their early 30s feel like I do. But I feel this overwhelming need to protect them. Almost like they are so vulnerable and gullible and fragile that I want to protect from them and keep them safe but I know I cannot control their decisions so I must let go. I can voice my concerns but I should eventually let go.

I also feel I now understand what it is like to let go with my brother. He is the young one. I am the older one. So I am bound to feel like I want to force my life lessons on him to prevent him from feeling the pain that comes from falling but I get, now, that, sometimes we should let our younger siblings fall on their own and learn on their own.

In the end, all we can do is offer support and just be there for them.

I wish more people understood they don't NEED a 'soulmate' to feel complete. We are all so whole, beautiful and 'full', just on our own. People who come into our lives (and sometimes go) are adding value, NOT completing anything.

Without placing blame, I feel a lot of this thinking is conditioned in us by family, society and peers and we just accept it. "If everyone else is saying that they feel complete, that must mean I will also feel complete ONE DAY when that special some one walks into my life"

I remember my grand uncle a very long time back telling in my teens that no one can complete and of course as most teens would I listened through one ear and lost the wisdom almost immediately. I hope more young adults realize sooner we are all complete.

We are born alone and we go alone. We only add value and we receive value to others we meet along on this beautiful journey we call life.

And since I am too pragmatic for a woman, I must add, in my own distinct flavor, that if we really would only be complete AFTER meeting a soulmate, how would we justify not meeting them in this 7 billion populated packed world with all of us SCATTERED around the globe. What if that soulmate was an Artic scientist but the likelihood of you meeting them is almost nil considering you are geographically separated for most of your life and would most never get the chance to meet him or her. I also doubt this scientist would have time to add an online dating profile which slims your chances of meeting this soulmate even more.

As "connected" we all our thanks to this thing we call the internet, we are all so separated too. This internet doesn't necessarily guarantee our connection with this soulmate.

At the end of the day, we learn to let go and learn to make the most of the people that DO enter our lives. No one can ever be perfect for us. We MAKE the most of the gifts they are to us and we MAKE IT WORK.

I have written about my thoughts on Soulmates here separate from this so this post doesn't get too long.  (No idea why the file isn't uploading. Typical Aussie internet!)

Pulsing With The Knowing

I have never had such powerful dreams before to the point that these are almost visions of this mysterious guy. Alejandro Manzano. I can't say I would know him just by the stuff online. But I still feel like I 'get him'. I get such a strong energy with him in my dreams like I have known him in my past and not just the dream I'm having. The dreams feel so real that even when we are in the dark I have almost memorized his 'presence'. I feel a very strange sensation that he knows me too on the same level.

He just doesn't know its me.

I can't put it in words but I try. I think because I want to stay sane :) This is all new to me.

So I asked myself to make sense of this. We are after all living in different countries. From what I know, when twinflames aren't physically together it means there is work to be done. That both need to work on themselves on emotional / mental levels before the two actually meet in person. What usually happens if the meeting happens too soon that it was 'meant to be', the energy between both turns out to be very very intense.

My dreams are intense. No, actually it is way too intense for me. There is an overwhelming sense of respect, admiration and love for each other and so heart felt from both sides. We are drawn together like magnets and it transcends 'cute puppy love'.

On a personal level, for the past couple of months, things have been falling into place for me on every level and I have been feeling very content, satisfied and at peace. The sense of completion that I already feels seems to be multiplied with these dreams that I almost wait to go to bed at night to LIVE through new revelations.

Love & IN Love

So many people use the word "I'm in love" without really understanding it. I think you can love someone without being IN love with them. You can't be in love with someone without TRULY knowing them.

Who will stand by you through your hardest times and love you for YOU even when you are stripped of all the materialistic valuables, money, power, fame, success. When you are in essence just you.

Who will love you when you are down with the flu, really sick, in bed, with bed hair and not looking your best. When you want to be hugged, loved, cuddled, kissed and held, feeling safe, protected and complete.

Why Me?

You don’t miss having your soulmate in your life most when you are down, but when you are so happy you want to share the joy with him or her.

I don’t mean “Why Me” in a negative way. I mean it in the sincere way “Why am I of all the other billions in the world having such vivid recurring dreams about Alejandro”

Around the time Boyce Avenue was touring UK, I had a dream where I was with A in a English music arena-ish setting, not too bright, not too dark. The feeling was one of knowing Alejandro closely.

I was not following Boyce Avenue news to know what they were up to and where they were, leave alone the fact that they started to tour the world. I don’t think the one time I viewed their music I was even exposed to any touring, at that time, if they even were.

After deducting time, place and activity, I realized that Alejandro was in a place very similar to what appeared in my dream at that precise moment (even after world time differences)

Alejandro I know what you feel. To the rest of us, I think it looks green on the other side but it can be so tiring for you, and you can feel so alone sometimes. You feel fear on so many levels. Sometimes coming so far makes you fear the stability, the pressure, the new-ness of it all.

My Top 3 Favorite Alejandro Manzano Pics

Alejandro Manzano My Type?

In my first blog post I had the audacity ;) to say that Alejandro Manzano was not necessarily my type. I don't look him up, I don't "follow" him and no, by strict definition, I am not a fan. In one word I would say I am not stalker-ish. With that said, though, I do find myself beaming with pride at the sight of his apparent success and do find him uber talented.

I think it takes a special mature woman to understand what it will take to be the "girl" of a famous musician. If you dig the limelight, want to be on the red carpet and want to be the envy of many girls around the world, then that life is perfect for you. But if you can understand there will be a LOT of touring leaving you and your beloved skyping a lot, competing with a lot of other women, and being the PERFECT arm candy, you just may not want that kind of life.

Sometimes I feel I am too practical for my own good. I like being behind the curtains helping rather than center stage receiving the applause. I LOVE my privacy. I love the fact that I am most introvert-ish, quiet, very shy. I allow very few people to get close to me. The kind of glamorous life as a MRS Alejandro Manzano may not suit my personality.

I do think that, having a few 'sacrificial lamb' bones in my body, that if I really love someone and connect with them on every level, making a few sacrifices is part of the territory. I can't think of not going out of my way to make someone I love happy.

And now for the most juiciest part - I am far from conventional. I am too geeky, nerdy, non-sexy looking. I think having being called "cute" all my life has now just made me resigned to the fact that I probably won't be a super sexy bombshell. Clearly, being sexy, is a per-requisite to being a "stars" arm candy. Disqualified immediately haha :)

Also I am older. I was born in 1981 (October). That makes me older. And no I have not entered the cougar era of my life yet. I am too shy to make the first move. Even when a guy makes that first move I am way too shy. I find myself being bubbly with people I warm up to (and those people are few and far between)

I am also not a typical girly girl. I don't get emotional half as much as my woman friends do. I also don't particularly enjoy "chick flicks". They aren't banned but they aren't on my top 10 list either. I prefer sci fi, zombies, post-apocalyptic, thrillers.

I am very turned on by intelligent banter.

I also drop my reservations and am not shy sexually when I am with a guy I feel very connected to. I can go from deep meaningful conversation to feeling very 'notty' in under 5 minutes.

I find myself being very balanced as I get older. I like those girls nights out occasionally  but I am a homebody who loves being with family and spending time with family and friends at home.

I love to cook but because I have been dieting for quite a while now that I have not had too much of a chance to get into the kitchen and really cook.

So where is this going. Clearly, I do not qualify as Alejandro Manzano girlfriend material. Not that he cares haha :) So that defies why I keep getting Alejandro Manzano dreams. The guy just won't stop making guest appearances to the point that I feel that we are drawn to each other in the dream state because we can't be together because of the apparent geographic distance.

The Beginning....

Exactly one year back I just happened to discover Boyce Avenue. I though (and think) they are talented and never thought much of it. Exactly one year after, I have a dream deep in my sleep. Not just one of those dreams you wake up and forget. One of those dreams that really really move you. In this dream I am with Alejandro Manzano from Boyce Avenue. I have no clue how a 'face' I had seen a year back on a YT video would re-appear in a dream.

To be certain, I jogged my memory to be sure I hadn't subconsciously caught the band name or A's name or any mention of them or their songs. I wanted to be sure my memory wasn't playing tricks on me so I gave it a day or two. I was sure. It was now strange. Why would someone I don't know and would most likely not meet in 'real' make a guest appearance in my dream and play a HUGE role.

I was so shaken by it that I remember every scene, every touch, every feeling, every bit of the happiness, joy and passion now. I can't shake it no matter how packed my day is with hectic work.

To be clear, A is not my type and I am almost certain I am not hist type. More importantly I live in Sydney Australia and he in LA I think. The likelihood of the dream transpiring into reality has a low probability.

I am also not a die hard fan. I do think they are talented but I don't swoon over anyone so by definition I do not qualify as a fan. HOWEVER, I do feel like I am "proud" of A.

I feel like I KNOW him. On a very deep level that transcends this 3rd dimensional physical reality.

So being uber practical I look up who this 'guy' is because I don't even know his name. I just remember the vocalist from some YT channel. I only go so far as finding out what his name and seeing what work he's been up to lately. I haven't "connected" / "followed" / "liked". Googling him I find a LOT of female fans totally "in love" with him. Not my words, theirs haha. I feel proud. Nothing else.

So I figured I would start this. This digital open letter / diary not really wanting A to read this but more as a private vent for figuring this out.

A moving dream on my parent's 34th wedding anniversary that I cannot shake off. I continue to look, watch, be proud from afar.